Exactly Where God Wants Me

Broken. That's where I am and that's exactly where God wants me. Don't get me wrong, I'm in the most upbeat mode I can be while still being broken by God. I'm married to the most amazing woman in the world, I'm going to be a Dad around the end of March, and I have a roof over my head, smiling the whole way. But for those of you who don't know, Rachel and I really wanted to move back down to Oregon to live closer to family as we started our own family. Toss it up to bad luck, the downward-spiraling economy, or anger towards God (I've done all 3) but it just wasn't in the cards.

I applied to plenty of church jobs, though churches are about the last places hiring right now. I applied to churches around Salem, heck I even finally applied to one that was IN Salem, but apparently God has other plans. While I refrain from blaming God for stopping me from getting that job, I wonder if He didn't try on my behalf because He has something better planned? I tried to start and open up, I applied to churches in my area because I thought maybe He wanted me to stay up here and enjoy a full-time job with benefits and the like to, you know, support a family. Still not right. California is nice but still nothing. So I opened up a little more and applied to a job in Montana near where Rachel grew up. No go there either... by the way, I'm not Pentecostal enough for some AG churches, but I'm too Pentecostal for some non-denominational churches, I find that disgustingly funny. I've now gone as far as to apply to some jobs (yes, more than one) in Colorado, still haven't heard back (Pastors are terrible at replying to email, no offense if you're a Pastor).

So here I sit, broken and wondering what is next? Rachel and I are both broken, we are ready to go wherever I can find a job that supports a family so that once the school loans are paid off (still waiting for that lotto ticket, haha) she can be a stay at home Mom. That might be here in the Seattle area and it might be somewhere else, quite frankly I don't really care where anymore. I'm glad God is finally getting His way now, hopefully He'll make His move soon. Now that I'm letting Him have complete control I'm antsy to get a move on it and start whatever new chapter He chooses!